Wednesday, July 30, 2003
u noe wat?! fuck la. this whole fucking thing juz fucking sux. argh. n u aren't making things any betta. u were supposed to. but wat happened? how did things turn out this way? y??!?! is it me? am i just too ignorant.. tt i din notice.. din realise until now... or did it jus happen? did u just decide tt this is the way u want things to b.. i wld neva do this to u, u noe... u noe y? cos i treasure u n evrythng we have n wldn't want all these to go away.. i don understand the logic behind it.. y wld u do tt? u mean tt's wat matters most to u? y muz it b u.. i wish it was someone else.. really dunno wat to say...............
i'm not tt naive........ i'll hang on if i can n let go when i have too... seeing is believing.. trusting ya own judgement is more than often an intelligent thing to do.. but not all the time though... wat if u think too much n is just being over-sensitve abt the whole issue.. but wat if u're not n wat u thought was so totally true n is actually happening? its so difficult to know the truth of things.. especially when u're not in any position to find out.. wat can u do? perhaps all u've gotta do is let go n b free again...
watched homerun with daniel, germ, candice, seok hui, xiaoxia, alicia n gerald just now.. boy, was it touching.. n certainly hilarious during some scenes.. sighz... was so touched by the siblings in the show.. n the protagonist was just awwwww-so-sweet to his little sister.. great show indeed! u hafta go n watch it! hee~
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
had games day on sat morning.. nothing much... i'm so glad tt xiaoping told me abt the tix! thankew xping n her fren for those NDP tix!! hee. how come no one seem to b enthu abt NDP?! its great wodz... lURVE the fireworks!!! darn nice!! its really lovely!! its like the whole sky was litted up.. so pretty! n those saf guys twirling their rifles.. whoa.. damn sud.
hee. had our 1st match on sunday... i din play until the last few minutes.. thanks to wanping for lending me her jersey! haha.. it was fourth base's first strikeout of the yr.. haha.. though they weren't really fantastic pitches, but i'm still quite happy.. hee! evrythng happened so quickly.. cant really remember wat happened when i was in there.. i went in, pitched a few, the batter got struck out, n tt's it, the game ended.. hmmmm.. thot the team's performance was not bad.. not at all.. it was afterall the first game as a team.. good job guys! n fight on! yea!
took white slip today.. i hate sch la.. dread it evry minute of the day.. dunno how to motivate myself.. to at least force myself to stay on n attend lessons.. like how sians is it manz.. sighz.. really sux.. hmm.. i shld stop whining.. looking forward to sat n sun.. hope i can put in betta pitches.. to at least do my little part for the team...
Sunday, July 27, 2003
A beautiful song..........
Breathing by Lifehouse
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to
Sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...
Where I wanna be...
I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one is you
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me, waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off of your table to the ground
La Da Da La Da Da Da Da Da
'Cause I just want to be here now
'Cause I am hanging on every word you're sayin'
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight, that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...(x2)
Where I wanna be...
Where I wanna be...